This is the second time in a row happening to me now, but had a complete melt down. So the first time- I get geared up and ready to go out on Friday, but mentally couldn’t be bothered to get the bike out and go for a ride. Today get the bike ready to go before gearing up and going out (have to move the car, get the bike out, move car back, and just before gearing up, I can’t face it.. so reveresed everything, move car , bike back, car back.. ifs the second time in a row I can’t bring myself to ride. I have only been out on a few green lanes local to me, and very limited back road riding experience. I just feel like iv lost confidence in myself, nothing has happened, but I can’t comfortably touch the floor, feel the rear beak with boots on, and I’m crumbling at the thought of traffic lights, hill starts, junctions and bends- pretty much everything about riding that I’ll be having to do as soon as I pull onto a main road. I passed my cbt a month or so ago, rode a handful of times but now I really can’t bring myself to.